Lost at 1:40 in the morning, warning emo!

I am 24 and feel like I am making all the wrong decisions in my life. I feel lost, confused, and nowhere near a clear path. I feel like I a grasping for straws. I haven't talked to my family in so long and not for any good reason. I feel like I don't deserve to be part of a family until I have my life together, even though I know they are there for me. I feel like I don't deserve them. It has been so long since I have called my grandma I feel like if i did call her it would be awkward. I miss San Diego, but I know if I move I will miss all the friends I have made up here. I am 24, it is time to figure this shit out and stop waiting like something or someone is going to make these decisions for me. Wow, emo facebook note at 1:40am ftw