Hooray finding alcohol I actually like!!

Tonight I found I like Southern Comfort! It is truly amazing! I feel like such a rock star you have no idea!!

Job hunting is SO MUCH FUN!!! o_0

So I have been on the job hunt every day for too many days to count! I have applied for every job opportunity I have come across, gone to shady ass interviews and even considered doing porn. I have come to realize that searching for a job takes a lot of juevos! Everyday I am told I am not qualified for the position I am applying for or I require more experience or I am just not suited for the company or these sombreros aren't big enough, bad little white girl!

I really need to find a job soon or I don't know what I am going to do. I am however trying to stay positive and know I will find a job and know that everything happens for a reason :)

Things to do when you can't sleep

1) Watch Muriel's Wedding on YouTube

2) Make amazing iced coffee with Ethiopia Yergacheffe

3) Play Word Challenge, and fail miserably!

4) Upload embarrassing pictures of your roommate to twitter

5) Greet roommates as they wake up

6) Apply for jobs online

7) Watch cat go crazy listening to the sound of birds outside

8) Think of ways to surprise a friend

Holly Golightly

So it's another one of those nights where I am up until 4am thinking about the most random things. Exhibit A would be the picture of Mickey Rooney as Mr. Yunioshi from Breafast at Tiffany's. I never really realized just how much I connect with Audrey Hepburn's character until this morning.

I still do not have a job. This is something that makes me feel like a complete loser. I am a fully capable human being. I am not stupid. I know I am trainable and have the ability to do almost anything I am presented with. I am 24 and I cannot find a job, still do not have a degree and barely make it each month. I guess I should look at the positive. I still have a lot more than some people and should be grateful for that.

I really want to start writing here more. If there are any topics you guys want to me write about let me know. I can always use a little direction. Until then I shall have to say goodbye and goodnight.

Your Ex-Lover Is Dead by Stars

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save...

Lost at 1:40 in the morning, warning emo!

I am 24 and feel like I am making all the wrong decisions in my life. I feel lost, confused, and nowhere near a clear path. I feel like I a grasping for straws. I haven't talked to my family in so long and not for any good reason. I feel like I don't deserve to be part of a family until I have my life together, even though I know they are there for me. I feel like I don't deserve them. It has been so long since I have called my grandma I feel like if i did call her it would be awkward. I miss San Diego, but I know if I move I will miss all the friends I have made up here. I am 24, it is time to figure this shit out and stop waiting like something or someone is going to make these decisions for me. Wow, emo facebook note at 1:40am ftw

Well hello long lost blog

1) Just finished Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk, was pretty awesome!

2) Had one of the most amazing weeks of my life with the sweetest guy ever!

3) Have a weird hat tan line on my forehead.

4) Quit the bucks, or let go, depends who you ask.

5) School starts at the end of august! Can't wait!!

6)I miss San Diego more and more every day.

7) I miss someone else, more and more everyday.

8) Without school and a job my days are boring as all hell.

9) I need to settle on a major!

10) I could use a good cuddle right now.