NEWS!!!

1) I chopped off my hair!

2) My best friend in the whole world is going to have a baby!!

3) I am so tired of looking for places to live in SD I kind of just want to live in my car.

Honesty

So I think it time I start to look at my life with complete honesty. I am too good at fooling myself or ignoring problems. I am 25, I have no college degree, I am overweight, losing my hair, my father was murdered, my mother is crazy, and I don't know what makes me happy. I feel like I have no direction in my life. I am an adult in the sense that my age fits that term, but inside I still feel 18. Unsure of what direction to take. Afraid of going down the wrong path. I am so afraid of going down the wrong path I have set up camp at the fork in the road. I am going to start using this blog to figure out who I am, what I want and where I want to go in my life. I am not a weak person. I know this. I am stronger than I ever give myself credit for. I can do anything I put my mind to.

Most AMAZING thing EVER!!!

Movie Review!!!!

SO I have been wanting to do a new blog for a long time and I jut haven't had anything really to say. My life has been dullsville lately with no job and no school. So I thought I would give my go at a movie review! We all know i always have an opinion..... about everything!

I recently saw the movie Taking Woodstock. The latest work from Oscar winning Ang Lee. It stars Demetri Martin, who in latest years I have really come to dislike. Once his show started on Comedy Central, my respect for his comedy really fell. This movie really made me like him again! His acting was real, genuine, and the comedy was something everybody could relate to. My favorite part of this film was Imelda Staunton. Her portrayal of Sonia Teichberg was AMAZING!!!! I loved her, I laughed, I hated her at one point, but then loved her again! Now the only thing was strange about this film was the awkward gay tension between Demetri Martin's character and every other male in the film. Every time he talked to a man there was this crazy awkwardness! You kept wondering if they were gonna make out, and then finally *spolier alert* he made out with a dude in front of his dad! AWKWARD!!! All in all, I would watch this again!

I don't know why the font changed out of nowhere......

ADD FTL!!

So I want to apologize for the lack of new blog post that have any substance. I have just been getting massive ADD every time I sit down to write a post. I promise good things are coming soon. *that's what she said!*

Roller Derby!

If you can't play nice, play roller derby!

Hooray finding alcohol I actually like!!

Tonight I found I like Southern Comfort! It is truly amazing! I feel like such a rock star you have no idea!!

Job hunting is SO MUCH FUN!!! o_0

So I have been on the job hunt every day for too many days to count! I have applied for every job opportunity I have come across, gone to shady ass interviews and even considered doing porn. I have come to realize that searching for a job takes a lot of juevos! Everyday I am told I am not qualified for the position I am applying for or I require more experience or I am just not suited for the company or these sombreros aren't big enough, bad little white girl!

I really need to find a job soon or I don't know what I am going to do. I am however trying to stay positive and know I will find a job and know that everything happens for a reason :)

Things to do when you can't sleep

1) Watch Muriel's Wedding on YouTube

2) Make amazing iced coffee with Ethiopia Yergacheffe

3) Play Word Challenge, and fail miserably!

4) Upload embarrassing pictures of your roommate to twitter

5) Greet roommates as they wake up

6) Apply for jobs online

7) Watch cat go crazy listening to the sound of birds outside

8) Think of ways to surprise a friend

Holly Golightly

So it's another one of those nights where I am up until 4am thinking about the most random things. Exhibit A would be the picture of Mickey Rooney as Mr. Yunioshi from Breafast at Tiffany's. I never really realized just how much I connect with Audrey Hepburn's character until this morning.

I still do not have a job. This is something that makes me feel like a complete loser. I am a fully capable human being. I am not stupid. I know I am trainable and have the ability to do almost anything I am presented with. I am 24 and I cannot find a job, still do not have a degree and barely make it each month. I guess I should look at the positive. I still have a lot more than some people and should be grateful for that.

I really want to start writing here more. If there are any topics you guys want to me write about let me know. I can always use a little direction. Until then I shall have to say goodbye and goodnight.

Your Ex-Lover Is Dead by Stars

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save...